The Land of What If

So I found this old 30 day writing challenge I never got to complete. I left it on day 10 - yay for me- and well,  decided to write a couple entries since I  have the time and presumably, the inspiration to do so. This particular entry caught my attention firstly because everyone misses someone and secondly, because it made me realise that maybeeee just maybee, I'm  still missing this person that I thought I was on my way to forget. I thought that this could help me with the healing process so, here you go, it's short and sweet... well, maybe not so sweet:  11. Someone I miss This one is painful as it is ridiculously complicated. I mean, what exactly means to miss someone? Is it expecting to see their name on your phone even though you're damn sure that won't happen although you've tried erasing their number -and if it does- then surely you'll go through hell all over again. But hey, aren't you already in some sort of hell? When that person's n...

I mean it, just get it togeher. I know this isn't the most motivating/ sensible way of saying something like this, but it sure is funny if you like Rick and Morty. Anyway my dear, for the last couple of months I've felt like things just got a little too heavy for me to carry. I tried to do my best in every aspect of my life but somehow I found myself stuck over and over again, desperate and about to quit everything that was quittable (yes, that's a word. And what did I do? No, I didn't just wake up and got all my shit in a backpack.  I listened to myself. I felt my feelings and said what I wanted to say. I reminded myself why did I even choose to study Medicine and why I let myself fall for that guy. As a matter of fact, I'm learning just how you can't really control your feelings, but how you can actually choose how you react to whatever happens to you. Yes, you are in charge of your own happiness and once you truly realise this, you'll be the h...

Que ya... que te abro la puerta de atrás y te pido con toda norma de cortesía que sin llevarte mi alegría no te aparezcas ni en mi pensar. Que ya he pasado por esto que aquí no hubo ni tanto amor ni sexo y que la mentira siempre estará no, es que tal vez no dijiste ni media verdad. Que ya no encuentro más excusas y estoy que me las invento que te pongo a tí de malo para así ponderar que no te quiero ni pensar.